Laziness

I now I am never a diligent student. But there’s times where I just do all my works and done long before the due date. There’s also times where I am really really lazy and doing nothing for days, like….. now :P

If I track back to the past. I realize that I’m really lazy on certain time. Usually it happen when I have so many assignment or deadlines. The harder the work, the more laziness that I have. 

In the opposite, when I have nothing to do, I am so energetic. I wake up early and do many things. I plan my trip or go out somewhere, or simply just clean my room. 

Besides deadlines, I also realize that I am lazy to take pictures. I love photography, so I do take picture of good object and scenery. But I don’t like taking picture of people for so many times at the same place. And when it comes to taking picture while doing something else, it’s frustrating. Using SLR is already hard, changing the apperture and shutter speed all the time while doing something else is not easy, at least for me.

One bad example happened recently when me and my friends went to Cold Stone. Ankur, one of my friend, asked to catch the ice cream. So the waiter threw the ice cream and he was about to catch it. At the same time, other waiter kept asking me what I want to order. Confuse about capturing Ankur’s moment with ordering my ice cream, I ended up taking picture of him but I missed the ice cream, because it’s too high and I didn’t raise my camera. 

Other object that I think not important is my neighbourhood and myself. It’s connected actually. Let’s say picture of NUS campus, I’d prefer not to take it without me in it, because if it is just the picture of NUS, there will be a lot in the net. What makes it special is a person, which is ‘me’. 

Again, that will cause another problem. Obviously I can’t take a picture on my own unless I bring tripod everywhere, which is troublesome. And asking random people wouldn’t be as good as I want. Not to mention, some people can’t or just too lazy to change the setting of the SLR camera.

Still connected with photography, I didn’t realize that pictures are important until recently. I had to make a photo essay of my activities during this exchange. It was so hard for me to find pictures. I did a lot of volunteer yet I only had 2-3 picture about it. I knew from the very beginning that I had to make that photo essay. But when I did the community services, I tottaly forget and, again, too lazy to take picture. I mean, I enjoyed my work and I didn’t want to lose my concentration just because of picture. What important for me was I enjoyed my community services.

If I could blame someone for this, that would be papa. I love him, but the way he hate picture just make me sad. We moved and travelled a lot around in Indonesia, yet I don’t have any memory of it. I don’t have picture when I did snorkeling in Menjangan island, or when I visited Martapura and Banjarmasin in Borneo, or when I stayed in Kupang which was one of the nicest city I’ve ever lived in. I didn’t have documentation about our family trip to Batam, East Borneo, and Manado. 

I guess in the end, pictures are important. At least it’s more important than how I used to think it is. I’m not saying that I take a lot of pictures now. But a few days ago, right before I packed up my things, I realize that I don’t have pictures of my room. So I took it. Without me in it, but there’s my stuff. So it’s different from random picture in the internet.